Mommy's Letter to William Ethan Morgan

My dear sweet baby Will,

I loved you before you were even conceived.  I will never forget the moment I knew you were growing in my belly.  I was singing and dancing and could not wait to share the news.  I thanked God for you every day and focused on loving every moment that we had to share.  My heart grew over the past 10 months to allow me to experience a love that I never knew possible.  Each day my love for God grew because of the miracle he allowed us to share.  I had more love for your father who cared for the two of us with more dedication and concern than I had ever seen.  I had more love for you who brought more joy into my life than I ever knew possible.  Yes the past 10 months have been the best 10 months of my life.

I know that you are with God today.  I may not understand his plan but I do know that if he needed someone full of love he choose the right boy to help him.  Your daddy and I love you so dearly but that is just the beginning.  You have grandparents, aunts, uncles, friends, and even perfect strangers who have been moved by your journey.  You, my sweet precious William, have in your short little life been loved more than many who have very long lives.  You have inspired so many of us to be better people and to make the most of the lives and our physical health that we sometimes take for granted.   We are so very proud of you.

I am your mommy and you are my son - the son that I prayed for and loved while you were here on earth.  I know that I will long to have you in my arms until the day I see you in heaven.  Until then, I must accept that you are with God in a much better place.   As hard as we tried to keep you to ourselves it looks like God too knew that you were an amazing person even before you were born.

Daddy and I will always love you.  

Hugs and Kisses,


Tuesday, July 1, 2008

We made it to Philly

Matt and I drove from Georgia to Washington DC on Saturday and then made the final sprint to Philadelphia on Sunday. We are still trying to get settled in . Right now we are staying a the Sheraton Society Hill Hotel but we are looking for something more permanent.

Yesterday we had a first appointment at CHOP. I had an ultra-sound and a non-stress test. I will have an appointment every Monday and Thursday until baby Will's arrival. He is getting bigger and stronger. The nurse performing the Ultra-sound said that other than the hernia William looks great. He is practicing his breathing techniques and he is very active. Unfortunately my amniotic fluid was up to 33 today. Dr. Johnson (my OB) said there is nothing to worry about because this number can change from day to day. Matt and I were still a little disappointed.

Matt's mom, Argiro, came to Philly yesterday :-) Matt has to go out of town for a business trip, so she is here to keep me company and help us get settled in our new home. Last night she took us out to a very nice dinner and it was great to catch up. Matt is leaving this evening. He is actually going back to Atlanta and will return Thursday night. He is not gone and I already miss him.

It is hard to be so far away from friends and family. Thank you all so much for your continued support. We love you all so much!!


Brian and Cassi Reed said...

I came across your blog from another CDH blog that I follow- sounds like you are due around the same time that I am- I am currently a little over 32 weeks pregnant with a CDH baby girl. I will def. be following your journey. My Dr's dont seem to be following me quite as close, i only have appointments every 4 weeks and no non-stress tests. Hope all is going well and that we will be able to "cook" our little buns as long as possible. Good luck with everything
In our thougths and prayers

The Reeds

Vicki Jensen said...

Glad to here you made it safely to CHOP. I saw you stopped in D.C. If you ever travel through Maryland you're welcome to stop by and meet our CDH miracle, Jack.

Best of luck and we'll be following you closely.
mom to Jack, LCDH & ECMO

Debra Laricks said...

Hi Heather,

Thank you so much for the message on Peyton's carepage. I am so happy that you have made it safely to Philly and CHOP. I am pleased to hear that Will is progressing so nicely--his size will definitely help him in his journey. I know everyone is probably telling you that this will be an emotional roller coaster, and they are not kidding. I found that writing on my carepage was very helpful in keeping everyone updated, esp. since I didn't feel like fielding a million phone calls. Make sure you ask ANY question, even if you think it is dumb. Trust your mother's instinct, it is sometimes much more accurate than medicine. Try to get rest and get away from the hospital every now and again. Most importantly, never give up on faith. If you need anything, please feel free to contact me via the carepage. I will be praying for your precious little boy!

Debbie Laricks
Peyton's Mom
RCDH 3/31/08