Mommy's Letter to William Ethan Morgan

My dear sweet baby Will,

I loved you before you were even conceived.  I will never forget the moment I knew you were growing in my belly.  I was singing and dancing and could not wait to share the news.  I thanked God for you every day and focused on loving every moment that we had to share.  My heart grew over the past 10 months to allow me to experience a love that I never knew possible.  Each day my love for God grew because of the miracle he allowed us to share.  I had more love for your father who cared for the two of us with more dedication and concern than I had ever seen.  I had more love for you who brought more joy into my life than I ever knew possible.  Yes the past 10 months have been the best 10 months of my life.

I know that you are with God today.  I may not understand his plan but I do know that if he needed someone full of love he choose the right boy to help him.  Your daddy and I love you so dearly but that is just the beginning.  You have grandparents, aunts, uncles, friends, and even perfect strangers who have been moved by your journey.  You, my sweet precious William, have in your short little life been loved more than many who have very long lives.  You have inspired so many of us to be better people and to make the most of the lives and our physical health that we sometimes take for granted.   We are so very proud of you.

I am your mommy and you are my son - the son that I prayed for and loved while you were here on earth.  I know that I will long to have you in my arms until the day I see you in heaven.  Until then, I must accept that you are with God in a much better place.   As hard as we tried to keep you to ourselves it looks like God too knew that you were an amazing person even before you were born.

Daddy and I will always love you.  

Hugs and Kisses,


Thursday, July 10, 2008

A Perfect 10!!!!

Each Monday and Thursday at our bi-weekly checkup, Will receives a score (on a scale from 2 to 10). At today's appointment, I ask the nurse to give me a breakdown. She gave me all of the details but basically an 8 is considered to be a great score. Our little Will has had 4 of these tests so far and he has received a 10 out of 10 each time.

Matt and I were both feeling the joy of being proud parents when she gave us the news. Will's left lung continues to grow and his breathing pattern is perfect. Today was the first time Matt got to see the breathing and he lit up like a Christmas tree as he watched Will's chest contract in and out as he practiced his breathing. I was almost as happy to see Matt's genuine delight as I was to see baby Will's breathing.

The doctors and nurses are telling us that he is a very strong and (otherwise) healthy little boy. The best news we can get at this point is that there have been no changes. We are focused on keeping him in my womb as long as possible. This means I will probably have to start taking it a little easier soon.

Matt and I are more confident and happy each and every day. Much of that is due to our host family. No words could express how awesome our host family is here in Philly. On Tuesday they took us to their club pool. It was so much fun. It was great to be weightless for a while. Matt and I swam around and had a ball. If that was not enough we ended the night with a special Philly desert. Our host family treated us to Rita's flavored Ice. I love it, and I would recommend that if any of you come up to visit, you make a special trip to Rita's. Matt and I had never had anything like it and we can not wait to go back.

Yesterday Sharon (Dove) Kaufman came to Philly to visit. She and I met for lunch. It was such a special gift for her to come and spend time with me. We were able to eat some excellent food and catch up. While I would ordinarily enjoy being home, I must admit that there are some perks and getting to spend some quality time with Sharon was definitely a strong one. Ale and Neal are planning to come this weekend. Matt and I are feeling pretty spoiled these days. You should all know that your notes of encouragement, phone calls and visits mean more to us than you would ever know. Matt and I gain strength from you all and I am sure baby Will is getting his strength from you all too.


Candice said...

Of course Will scored a perfect 10, look who his mommy and daddy are!

CHERUBS - The Association of Congenital Diaphragamtic Hernia Research, Awareness and Support said...

Hi Heather and James, just checking in on you and Ethan! You continue to be in our prayers! Let us know if you need to talk, have questions, etc. We're all here for you!!!

& the members of CHERUBS