Mommy's Letter to William Ethan Morgan

My dear sweet baby Will,

I loved you before you were even conceived.  I will never forget the moment I knew you were growing in my belly.  I was singing and dancing and could not wait to share the news.  I thanked God for you every day and focused on loving every moment that we had to share.  My heart grew over the past 10 months to allow me to experience a love that I never knew possible.  Each day my love for God grew because of the miracle he allowed us to share.  I had more love for your father who cared for the two of us with more dedication and concern than I had ever seen.  I had more love for you who brought more joy into my life than I ever knew possible.  Yes the past 10 months have been the best 10 months of my life.

I know that you are with God today.  I may not understand his plan but I do know that if he needed someone full of love he choose the right boy to help him.  Your daddy and I love you so dearly but that is just the beginning.  You have grandparents, aunts, uncles, friends, and even perfect strangers who have been moved by your journey.  You, my sweet precious William, have in your short little life been loved more than many who have very long lives.  You have inspired so many of us to be better people and to make the most of the lives and our physical health that we sometimes take for granted.   We are so very proud of you.

I am your mommy and you are my son - the son that I prayed for and loved while you were here on earth.  I know that I will long to have you in my arms until the day I see you in heaven.  Until then, I must accept that you are with God in a much better place.   As hard as we tried to keep you to ourselves it looks like God too knew that you were an amazing person even before you were born.

Daddy and I will always love you.  

Hugs and Kisses,


Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Wrapping things up in Atlanta

Tuesday my sister and I went to my final OB appointment in Atlanta. I am happy to report that baby Will is cuter than you could possibly imagine. I thought that was a biased report because I am his mom, but his aunt agreed whole heartedly, so it must be true.

We did get a few good reports from the doctor. First, my amniotic fluid seems to be slowly decreasing which indicates that William is able to practice swallowing and is beginning to better regulate his environment. Second, the doctor indicated that he can see some new lung tissue. Although the amount of lung tissue is not as important as the lung function we are happy with any and all news of lung development. Finally, William is a growing stronger every day. He is now 5 pounds and 10 ounces. At 32 weeks that puts him in the 83rd percentile. While that is a little overwhelming to me as I anticipate labor, his size and strength could not be more important. I believe that we have all been praying for a strong baby and The Lord has answered. This little baby is coming into the world ready to fight.

Matt and I cannot thank you enough for all of your thoughts and prayers. Your encouraging words continue to astound us and invigorate us with the passion we need to be the parents baby Will deserves. We are so happy to have you all partake in this chapter of our life and we want you to know that you are all playing an important role in our lives. We could not do this without your support.


Melissa said...

Hi Matt and Heather
I can't imagine what a journey this has been for you so far.As you look towards the birth of Will, know that God is cradling you in his arms as you will Will.You are in our thoughts and prayers and please know that though we may be here in Atlanta and you in Philly ,we will be here if you ever need us.
Godspeed my friends.
With love
Melissa (Anthony ,Isabelle and Duncan too)

Liz Rich said...

Matt & Heather,
Our family will be praying for you! Our little boy Par (LCDH)was born 11/1/07--we went to UF/Shands (we live in Birmingham)--so I know all about this part of the journey--hopefully you can bob in a pool until you deliver! I'd love to answer any questions you might have--feel free to email-

Gina said...

Stay strong. CDH babies are fighters and our thoughts and prayers will be with you. My son Wyatt was born with CDH on Oct. 9th, 2007 at Johns Hopkins and was one of the most extreme cases. He is a little miracle and is doing great! We will always be thinking about you and if you don't mind, I'll add your blog to Wyatt's so that you can get extra prayers:))

Wyatt's Mom