Mommy's Letter to William Ethan Morgan

My dear sweet baby Will,

I loved you before you were even conceived.  I will never forget the moment I knew you were growing in my belly.  I was singing and dancing and could not wait to share the news.  I thanked God for you every day and focused on loving every moment that we had to share.  My heart grew over the past 10 months to allow me to experience a love that I never knew possible.  Each day my love for God grew because of the miracle he allowed us to share.  I had more love for your father who cared for the two of us with more dedication and concern than I had ever seen.  I had more love for you who brought more joy into my life than I ever knew possible.  Yes the past 10 months have been the best 10 months of my life.

I know that you are with God today.  I may not understand his plan but I do know that if he needed someone full of love he choose the right boy to help him.  Your daddy and I love you so dearly but that is just the beginning.  You have grandparents, aunts, uncles, friends, and even perfect strangers who have been moved by your journey.  You, my sweet precious William, have in your short little life been loved more than many who have very long lives.  You have inspired so many of us to be better people and to make the most of the lives and our physical health that we sometimes take for granted.   We are so very proud of you.

I am your mommy and you are my son - the son that I prayed for and loved while you were here on earth.  I know that I will long to have you in my arms until the day I see you in heaven.  Until then, I must accept that you are with God in a much better place.   As hard as we tried to keep you to ourselves it looks like God too knew that you were an amazing person even before you were born.

Daddy and I will always love you.  

Hugs and Kisses,


Tuesday, July 8, 2008

Let them eat Cake :-)

This week the Doctor's at CHOP made a request that I take a three hour glucose test. I had passed the one hour test in Atlanta but because baby Will is so big (and strong) they thought perhaps I had a late on-set of gestational diabetes. For those of you who have taken the test you know just how awful it is to endure. For those of you who are curious I will give you a brief run down.

Fast for 12 hours
Have your blood drawn for an initial baseline
Drink a glucola (an extremely high sugar content cola flavored beverage)
Have your blood drawn (one hour after drinking your glucola)
Have your blood drawn (two hours after drinking your glucola)
Have your blood drawn (three hours after drinking your glucola)

I was at the hospital from 8:30am until 2pm. We finally had lunch at 2:30pm. I was not feeling well and was actually beginning to shake and quiver from the sugar overdose and fasting. All it took was some food and I was back to normal.

This afternoon, one of the mid-wives from CHOP called to let me know that I PASSED!!!!! No Gestational Diabetes. Our baby is just a big baby. That should work in his favor during his treatment after birth. Matt and I did not believe that I had gestational diabetes but the thought of not having any sweets for the next five weeks was not pleasant. It seems like all comfort foods have carbs and I cannot imagine not having a cookie every now and then.

Many of you know, Matt and I share our Birthdays (his is the 16th and mine is the 17th) and it looks like we will be able to celebrate with cake after all.


Murat Aksu said...


You are so funny. We are really happy that you are keeping your spirits up. This is exactly what William needs now. Please let us know if you can come down to visit us in DC. Acela Train will get you here in under 2 hours and it is very comfortable in the business class.

Aksu Family

Barb LeBlanc said...

Just wanted to let you know that I think of you all each time I log into Factiva (which is often!) I'm glad you have found a comfortable home. I have put Baby William's name on our prayer list at church.

Take care,


Cindy said...

Happy birthday, enjoy your cake!

I had to do the 3-hour glucose test and thought I was going to pass out from hunger/blood sugar! After I was done I rushed out to get a cheeseburger, and it was the BEST food I have ever eaten!