Mommy's Letter to William Ethan Morgan

My dear sweet baby Will,

I loved you before you were even conceived.  I will never forget the moment I knew you were growing in my belly.  I was singing and dancing and could not wait to share the news.  I thanked God for you every day and focused on loving every moment that we had to share.  My heart grew over the past 10 months to allow me to experience a love that I never knew possible.  Each day my love for God grew because of the miracle he allowed us to share.  I had more love for your father who cared for the two of us with more dedication and concern than I had ever seen.  I had more love for you who brought more joy into my life than I ever knew possible.  Yes the past 10 months have been the best 10 months of my life.

I know that you are with God today.  I may not understand his plan but I do know that if he needed someone full of love he choose the right boy to help him.  Your daddy and I love you so dearly but that is just the beginning.  You have grandparents, aunts, uncles, friends, and even perfect strangers who have been moved by your journey.  You, my sweet precious William, have in your short little life been loved more than many who have very long lives.  You have inspired so many of us to be better people and to make the most of the lives and our physical health that we sometimes take for granted.   We are so very proud of you.

I am your mommy and you are my son - the son that I prayed for and loved while you were here on earth.  I know that I will long to have you in my arms until the day I see you in heaven.  Until then, I must accept that you are with God in a much better place.   As hard as we tried to keep you to ourselves it looks like God too knew that you were an amazing person even before you were born.

Daddy and I will always love you.  

Hugs and Kisses,


Friday, June 20, 2008

What's in a Name?

Matt and I had decided that we were going to wait to name our son until after his birth. We thought we should get a good look at him before we made such a permanent decision. That all changed when he was diagnosed with CDH. Matt put it best when he said "Anyone who is getting an MRI should have a name". I agreed and then we spent many hours on many days trying to determine the best name for our son.

Right now there is not much we can do for him, but we felt that giving him a strong name was something that would prepare him for the battle ahead. With that in mind, we first named him William Robert Morgan. William has two root words. The first meaning will or desire and the second meaning protection. This name has a long history in the Barber family and the meaning could not be more perfect. Our son is going to need a strong will and much protection. Robert is Matt's father's name. For those of you who do not know Matt's dad, he is an extraordinary man of strength and honor and our son would absolutely benefit from sharing his name. It was actually one of the most positive ways to spend our time because there is not much we could do for a son. Ensuring that he was prepared with a strong and meaningful name seemed productive.

We were so excited to finally have our son's name we called all of our close family to let them know. A few days later Cindy (my sister) called and ask me if we had thought of the nick names our son might be taunted with in school. Of course, that had completely slipped our minds. I told her that we had not even taken nick names into account. She told me that we had named our son Billy Bob. I went into hysterics. I laughed until I had tears. I immediately told Matt and we began working on a new name for our son.

Ethan had always been at the top of our list and it means strong. Strength is needed just as much as will and protection so we finally had our son's name. It is official - William Ethan Morgan.


Rosie said...

Heather and Matt,

I just wanted to let you know we will be praying for you. Our son Mason was also diagnosed with severe right sided CDH. He was born on 5/25/07 at UofM and has recovered well. His biggest issue is his oral aversion that prevents him from feeding orally.


Rosie said...

Sorry for the short post above. After I read it, I thought that I did not convey what I wanted to say. What I meant to convey is that Mason is otherwise a healthy and happy 1 year old with a few typical CDH issues.


Candice said...

Wow, William inspires me already! Little Will, know that you are already touching my life. Life is sweeter, safer, and more loving -- and it's all because of you!

Elizabeth said...

Your sister is a card! I didn't think of that either. You have to watch those names though. Noah's older sister wanted us to name him ...Brock Lee - broccoli...another card...

Keeping you all in my thoughts, prayers and Lung Function chants,